Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Christmas Spirit

Every year I try to get into the Christmas spirit; and every year I can't. But, that's not really what this post is about. No, this post is a reminder that not everyone can mentally celebrate Christmas. What?

Christmas lights are probably my favorite thing about the whole season. Unfortunately, it should be family and friends right and like presents and stuff? Nope, it's the lights. It's been that way since I was a small child. Every year we would go out and find the best house with the most things in their displays and the houses that didn't have lights I honestly thought very poorly of them. "Why are there no lights on your house"? "Are you too lazy to go out and buy lights and put them up"? These are serious thoughts that I know don't only run through my head. But, then it all made sense.

2015 sucked balls. For me. For you. For everyone. I know I'm not supposed to get over it so soon but I literally have absolutely NO motivation for anything. Life. Work. Going out. So, I'm still depressed and stuff I suppose. Anyway...if I had a house to wouldn't be decorated and let me tell you why. I have no desire to celebrate a holiday I don't get to spend with the people I usually spent it with. I have no desire to make sure you are happy when you drive past my lighted house when I can't even make myself happy. Holidays are the hardest they say and they aren't lying. If only we could hibernate until spring when all of this holiday depression is over. 

I literally just had this thought the other day when I was helping my Momma Jodi clean out the bedroom in which will become mine in a few days. I realized that I'm not the only one who is struggling to get through this holiday and I must pat myself on the back because we did so good cleaning out that room and going through Papa's boxes without any tears. Everyday we get closer. 

So, wrapping this up because I swear this had a purpose...when you do drive by's to see lights and you come across one with no lights and maybe even the lights inside are off they are probably in the same boat as me. It's not because they are a Scrooge or because they are lazy. It's because it is mentally too much for them to handle and I'm going to put something on every door I see without lights. 

**side note..some people really are just Scrooges and lazy. But, don't jump the gun unless you know for sure. Be happy, be supportive, and give love.**